Just a day for me to remember

So I have been mulling over the idea of posting this on my blog.... It was not a happy time in my life but I realize that all monumental events are not always happy.... that doesn't mean we don't want to remember them. I am mainly posting this for me to remember (not that I could forget) but as time goes on the sadness will fade and the exact date may be hard to remember.

On August 3rd. I took a home pregnancy test and it came out positive... I could not believe it. I was shocked and actually felt like I may throw up! I have 2 beautiful, healthy boys and was not sure how I felt about having a 3rd. Of course that moment only lasted a few minutes and I became very excited! I called my Dr. the next day to make an appt and they told me I was about 6-7 weeks along. I was thrilled! That afternoon I started bleeding... I knew from having 2 normal healthy pregnancies something was very wrong. I called my Dr. and he said to come in and have a blood test done. I got the results back with some very devastating news.... I was having a miscarriage. I could not believe it... I thought that happened to other people... Not me. Unfortunately because I had already had 2 healthy pregnancies I had told everyone... that was horrible to have to tell them I was miscarriging.

I was only 6-7 weeks along but I felt such a tremendous loss.... so alone! I think that when a woman becomes pregnant she feels an immediate bond where the man feels it later on in the pregnancy. I felt like Josh had no idea what I was going through or even cared... I know it is not true but that is how I felt. I had a horrible week of physical and emotional issues relating to the miscarriage... and I am still saddened by it. I think that once you go to those places in your head... holding the baby, naming the baby and so on you feel as if they have been ripped away from you. I certainly felt that way.

I know that everything happens for a reason... that God has a plan for everything and I truly believe it. That is what gets me through things like this. I know in my heart it wasn't meant to be... for some reason that baby was not meant to come to Josh and I.

9 years

9 years... that is how long Josh and I have been married. Last night we went out and celebrated our anniversary... even though it is actually on the 25th. We went and ate at Mona Lisa's and if you have not been there you are missing out... big time! It is so expensive we can only do it 1-2 times a year but it is soooooo yummy!

We had a great date... went out and ate and then rented a movie and came home just the two of us. It was alot of fun and I sure do love Josh.... even more then the day I married him!

I of course forgot my camera.... I always do.

A day to document

So I felt the need to document today.... Julie and I worked hard today. It is a running joke she and I have that we have such great jobs because we never do anything... it is only a joke... YES Beth we really do work (most days)!

But today we had to box up 136 mounts.... 136! That is alot of mounts. We worked really hard and so we took our selves out to a super yummy lunch!

A Sad leave

Well I am sad to report that Bella the cat is gone.... she was there yesterday when we left in the morning and when we got home she was gone. I kept thinking maybe she just went for a stroll and will be back but by this morning she was still gone. Jace is absolutely heartbroken.... he really liked that cat alot and spent most of his time at home with her. He has a theory and it goes like this..." Bella was in the front yard and someone stopped and picked her up and she tried as hard as she could to get out of the car but they wouldn't let her and they took her home.... because she would never leave me... she loves me to much"... I told him that is absolutely true she did love him and wouldn't purposely leave him.


It is a sad day around my house......

A good little cat....

So on Saturday morning shortly after arriving at my sis-in-laws house for the yard sale this cute little kitty came over and hung out... it ended up being in SIL's garage all day long. They did not want the cat so I begged Josh to please let me take it home... he said absolutely not... no way!

On Sunday Josh had to go back to her house to get an entertainment center and when he got home... surprise!!! He had brought the kitty with him. It is such a good kitten... obviously already been house trained (although it is not allowed in our house). Jace absolutely LOVES it.... he spends every second with her he can... and he named her Bella!

Yard sale!

Last Friday and Saturday we had a yard sale at my sis-in-law's house in Caldwell. It was actually quite fun and I didn't do to bad considering I just threw a few things in and headed over. It ending up being a 5 family yard sale with lots of cool things. My bro-in-law made out like a bandit.... he ended up making about $450.00... whew!

I only got one pic but it cracked me up.... didn't want anyone to think this little guy was for sale!

On Sunday we spent a lazy day at home... well that is until Riley decided to "clean" the TV with a whole lotta water and it no longer worked. We ended up going here....

When we got home with our new TV ( did not buy a flat panel..... I refuse to spend $700.00 on a TV) Josh plugged in our old one and TADA... it worked fine... what a waste of a trip to town. So we are returning the new one and maybe buying a new vaccum... which the boys also tried to clean with a whole lotta water.

Crazy Lady!!!!

So a couple of hours ago I noticed something rather odd... I noticed I am wearing 2 totally different shoes... like they are both black flip flops but that is the only thing they have in common. Seriously who does that??? One is quite a bit larger then the other... has a totally different design then the other and has quite a bit wider strap on it.

I seriously think somedays I am losing it!

If I had my camera I would post a pic.