He said it....

Tonight Jace said it... the mean, horrible words, after being in trouble for lying yet again he told me"I hate you." I knew eventually it would come.. he has been saying I don't like you for a year now... for some reason that is easier to take then I hate you. I knew it would come because I have said it to my own parents... I never meant it.. but I said it. I am not sure if that is any more comforting knowing he didn't mean it.... it is still very hurtful words. This is what happens... we spend so many sleepless nights...so much time.... so much money on these little creatures... all for them to get a little bigger and repay us by telling us they hate us. Now I know my son loves me... he felt worse for saying it then i did... he is still saying I am sorry and crying. But it still does not heal the heart after hearing those 3 terrible words. Sigh................... Sometimes parenting is the hardest thing in the whole world... totally worth it but very tough.